Regular programming.

Once again, I just woke up. Somehow, while I was sleeping, I was wondering what the time was, but then I realised that my alarm to write this newsletter hadn't gone off yet, so it's definitely not up to 6pm.

I stayed at home throughout today, I was supposed to go out to charge, but one thing led to another and I found myself sleeping and just wouldn't get up. Also, it was raining.

Speaking of rain, when will this entire thing wrap up? If I'm not mistaken, it's August and August is supposed to be a dry month, WHY IS IT STILL RAINING? I can't even begin to tell you the amount of time that I've had to go to school under an ungodly rainfall. It's just three times, but it's still terrible. I was soaked.

I was snooping around the internet and I think I discovered something that might make writing my project easier. I'm excited to try it out. I haven't started writing. Hopefully, by next week—according to my supervisor.

My exams are starting next month, the deadline for everything project is in October, and then internal and external defense is in November. Final year really did take up all my time this year. Incredible.

I just saw this on Substack and what an odd coincidence! We're both bearing “Grace” and we both had the same experience. I actually know people who acted that way. Although, most of them, I don't exactly know them anymore. But yeah, they just lurk around, but never say anything.

You know that moment when you're excited about something and you post it on your WhatsApp status. You did that, and this person (who is supposed to be your friend) just swipe past the whole thing and reply to this completely irrelevant thing, and worse, they're telling you to send it to them (it's a video or a link).

I'm not even going to lie, there are several people coming to mind right now. It wouldn't have been a problem if they never responded, right? I would assume they didn't even see it, but they saw it, they moved past it.

And then there's the ones who make everything about them or the ones who make it a point to tell you how they will never care for what you did and how it's not even an accomplishment and you're just wasting your time doing dumb things that don't matter.

Anyways, that's all for today. Right now, I'm terribly hungry. I should go look for something to eat now.

Books.

I read a bit of Necessary Fiction by Eloghosa Osunde yesterday, and as much as I enjoyed her first book, I just can't get into this one. I don't know if it's because I'm reading it for the first time. How do I put this? I find it very pretentious. I can't even be surprised at anything the characters do, because of course, they do.

Oh, she can see spirits? Of course.

Oh, she's the smartest, beautiful, and most reserved person in school? Of course.

Oh, these secondary school children are smoking weed on a field trip because they're cool like that? Of course.

Oh, her parents are really popular people and super great at their job, but they're actually not together. The father sleeps with men and the mother is attracted to a woman? Of course.

It was interesting, until it became just bland. I'm still reading it sha, I've been looking forward to this book for a while now (😔). If you're also reading the book, I would also like to know what you think.

My highlights from the book (so far):

Articles, blog posts, essays, and everything else in between.

💕 Bag of words, have mercy on us.

Excerpts:

• You would get better scientific descriptions from a 2025 bag of words than you would from a 1600 bag of words. But both bags might be equally bad at producing the scientific ideas of their respective futures. Scientific breakthroughs often require doing things that are irrational and unreasonable for the standards of the time and good ideas usually look stupid when they first arrive, so they are often—with good reason!—rejected, dismissed, and ignored. This is a big problem for a bag of words that contains all of yesterday’s good ideas. Putting new ideas in the bag will often make the bag worse, on average, because most of those new ideas will be wrong. That’s why revolutionary research requires not only intelligence, but also stupidity. I expect humans to remain usefully stupider than bags of words for the foreseeable future.

• (That’s also why I see no point in using AI to, say, write an essay, just like I see no point in bringing a forklift to the gym. Sure, it can lift the weights, but I’m not trying to suspend a barbell above the floor for the hell of it. I lift it because I want to become the kind of person who can lift it. Similarly, I write because I want to become the kind of person who can think.)

Movies, Series, YouTube, and everything in between.

I'm still watching The Big Bang Theory, I'm currently on episode 13 (season 05). Sheldon is dating Amy now, officially (they're called ‘Shamy’). I'm not a huge fan of it, actually. Although I did say it was cute initially on my WhatsApp status, after watching episode 13, I'm just sad and tired. For Amy.

Sheldon is the most self centred person you'll ever meet and Amy is sweet. She's someone who craves intimacy and all that. She's just going to be in a relationship with someone who doesn't exactly value her and I have to watch all of it.

For example, in an episode I watched today, Amy was telling Sheldon about how she got an award and Sheldon dismissed it because she was in the field of Biology (she's a neurobiologist) and biology is not as important as Physics (Sheldon is a physicist).

Let me backtrack a bit, Sheldon always thinks he's better than everyone. If someone (including HIS OWN FRIENDS) gets an award or a recognition, he would act like it was a stupid idea. Apparently, everyone is just plain stupid. It's so annoying to watch sometimes.

Now, Amy, before she started dating Sheldon, we could see her talking about sex and touch and wanting to belong, and as much as you can think that her relationship with Sheldon is cute, mostly because of the way you can see Sheldon soften sometimes towards her. It's not worth it.

Let me forget that it's not real and say this, she would definitely feel neglected and unseen most of the time, and if it's a real life situation, it's basically a case of her settling because she doesn't think she wouldn't find anybody else. It's so sad.

But there are scenes I found cute, like the time when Penny convinced Sheldon to go to the jewellery store to get something for Amy because he hurt her feelings (the award incident). He got her a tiara and she was so excited about it, she kissed him AND HE DIDN'T COMPLAIN AND JUST SHOOK HIS HEAD AND HUGGED HER BACK.

Also, when Amy was down and he cuddled with her even though that wasn't what he would normally do (he hates physical contact), it was cute, until you realise that Amy actually wanted to have sex at first, but had to settle because even I can't imagine Dr. Sheldon Cooper engaging in coitus.

Sigh. I also read a subreddit which said they got married at some point, although they did break up because of Sheldon. Ugh. Why did I even decide to watch this? But I watch, still.

I also started watching Wednesday Season 02, I'm still on episode 01. I can't seem to get over the fact that it's 1 hour long. That is 5 episodes of the big bang theory. Na wa. I probably won't watch it sef, the whole mysterious and dangerous thing gets boring after a while.

I'm so dark and mysterious and I don't like physical touch and I engage and survive in dangerous situations.

Abeg.

This was fun to write, WRITE BACK (😡).

See you tomorrow.

Bye x.