Week 46: It’s getting hard coming up with titles.

Regular programming. 

Sunday, November 09. 

I'm currently sitting on the floor. Before now, I was lying down on the floor for about an hour. Once again, periods are from hell. 

What's new? I saw my final semester results last week, and these people are [redacted]. Usually, with the second semester, they put all your courses in one sheet, and then there's a final remark in the last column saying whether you're resitting a course, repeating the class, passed all your courses, or getting withdrawn from the faculty. Pretty straightforward process. 

Somehow, someone had the bright idea not to do it that way. They decided to release the results one after the other for each course. It's not entirely a bad thing; that's just not how it usually is, especially when it's the final semester and you're just waiting to see any of those remarks above. 

Editing Grace: They eventually released the results the normal way. Not too much on them. For now. 

When I saw the first two courses, I couldn't even check it. I just went into panic mode immediately, especially since it dawned on me that I had to do that 5 more times. Anyways, I passed all my courses. I was almost scared that I would have to resit a course this final year, I don't know, it just felt too good to be true. I am almost done with this faculty. 

There's still my defense, it was supposed to be last week. Allegedly! For some weird reason, they haven't brought it up anymore. I had to loosen my coloured braids. That's the most painful part for me (😞), I liked that hair. 

I don't know when the defense is, I'm just “chilling” now. I'm done writing my project, I've done what I think should be an acceptable presentation slide, I'm just waiting for my defense. I have to pause and say that I can't stop thinking about meat pie. Baked goods with fillings. 

Thursday, November 13. 

I used to be so consistent with writing this newsletter, and not just with this newsletter. With doing certain things. I had a routine. You guys, I've been spending so much time scrolling. From one app to the other. My biggest fear is being the person WHO USED TO do stuff. USED TO. 

Sure, I can outgrow certain things or not vibe with them anymore, but just not doing them because I don't have the brain capacity to? Omg. It will not be me. Sure, there are other things that can get in the way, but I would rather just find a way around it than live a certain way. 

Anyways, my defense was supposed to be tomorrow, but it's no longer tomorrow. Allegedly! What keeps pissing me off about this whole thing is that there's no official statement from the head of department. How can something like this be happening and there's nothing on the noticeboard, just hearsay? It's insane. What if I sleep and wake up tomorrow and hear that it's actually tomorrow? Apparently, it's next Wednesday, so make we dey see. 

My project work is actually interesting; I'm just a shy person, and as much as I know that as long as I'm on that stage, I will definitely not mess up, the thought of being before everyone makes me nervous. Also, the question and answer part. What if they ask me something I have no answer to? 

It's why I'm actually glad they shifted it till next week, I will have more time to read my work and practice my presentation—this is looking like what you say, but you end up not doing. You just end up procrastinating again. But trust, I will do it. 

I spent most of the day with my boyfriend, it was fun until I had to leave. Sadly, I can't stay there forever. What a wicked world we live in. 

Books. 

The last time I wrote to you I was reading the Pretty Little Liars series, but I stopped. Now I'm just reading everything, trying to make my brain focus. I've noticed that the fastest way for me to break my reading slump is to read romance, and that's what I'm currently doing.

I'm currently reading The Defender by Ana Huang. It reads like a typical Ana Huang/TikTok romance sensation. There are a lot of clichés, and I don't mean this in a good way. 

There's only so many times you can read about two people hating each other and all of a sudden, they like each other. As per, nothing happened o. They just saw each other naked and finally think, “no, I can't be attracted to him, he's my best friend brother whom I've known since three years ago and have never done anything to me for us to hate each other so much. Why do I want to ride him like a horse?”, I'm sorry, but that's how they think. Plus, the FMC has emotional attachment issues too. She doesn't want everyone to know she's a nepo baby, she can take care of herself, even though she's drowning in debt and her father (and boyfriend) is a millionaire, MIND YOU.

I'm also rereading the To All The Boys I've Loved Before series. I'm stuck in this second book because I'm a particular point of the book that's so hard to read (at least, for me). I find it very cringe, I feel like I might pass out if I have to read it again. 

It's the part where Lara Jean and her friends are coming together to play one game before the tree house is cut down. Everything annoys me about entire plot of book 2. Why didn't she just confront her boyfriend and why was Peter still going back to meet Genevieve? Plus, the game was stupid. 

The Life of the Mind is about a woman who had a miscarriage (I can't remember, but she lost a pregnancy) and spends the entire book thinking about it. Typical literary fiction. I'm reading The Psychology of Money because I need money (😞). I mean, you have to start from somewhere. I have terrible money habits, man. What a year. 

Blogmas! ⛄ 💕

Blogmas is basically a challenge bloggers do during Christmas where they post everyday till Christmas. That's the rough summary. Last year, I did one for about 15 days or so, where I interviewed readers about their books and reading habits last year. 

I'm doing one this year in a different format, you can get more information from this google form and sign up if you're interested (be interested, ijn). You can also share with anyone you think would be interested. 

Movies, Series, YouTube, and everything in between.

I've been using my Letterboxd more these days, I finally learned how to properly log and review the movies I watch. Letterboxd is like Goodreads or Storygraph. It's a tracking app for movies or series, the only con is you can't log ongoing series or certain series too. 

Last month, I mostly watched horror movies. These days, I just want to watch horror movies or movies about people being trapped in a place and it's a survival of the “fittest” situation. The Belko experiment was terrible, it would have been better if it were a series, so the scenes build up more. Everything felt rushed which made some scenes ridiculous to watch. 

I rewatched To All the boys I've loved before with my boyfriend, I'm never going to watch a romance movie with him. He was making fun of them a little too much, it's romance, it's supposed to be a little bit cringe.

Tower Heist was fun, I first saw it at my boyfriend's place, before I decided to watch it by myself. Scream was… interesting. You know one thing I just couldn't get past? The fact that whoever was behind the mask was always a regular ass person. How is this regular teenager able to fight trained police officers and run so fast? How? Don't piss me off. Especially since there was no supernatural element in the movie. It made everything so unbelievable. I also learned that the movies were trying to make a “mockery” of horror movies, the common tropes and all, but still. It was ridiculous. 

Would You Rather had a sad ending and everything moved too fast for my liking. It and It Chapter Two was okay to watch, I enjoyed it, surprisingly. Not “enjoy” in a creepy way, more like “enjoy” in a “this wasn't so bad” way. I enjoyed chapter two better, probably because they were grown up there. I have to say though, some of the characters in the movie—the horror characters—were so creepy and a little bit disturbing. 

I watched Heads of State with my boyfriend, I wasn't expecting to like it, but I actually did. It was funny and I would watch any genre of movie, as long as it's  funny. 

A series I watched that isn't logged here is From. It has three seasons so far, the fourth one will be out next year. It's so… weird, but interesting. It's horror and mystery. 

It's about this town where if you get in, you can't get out. There's no service and monsters come out at night. You have to keep your windows shut and don't open your doors at night. They use a special stone to keep the monsters out, so they can't get in, unless you open the door for them. 

The series start with this family going on a trip and they somehow end up in this town, then they start trying to solve the mystery and everything kicks off from there. I watched it in two days, now I'm waiting for season 4. I'm a little bit scared though, I hope season 4 is as good as the other seasons. I'm still scarred from Severance, it was good, until it just wasn't anymore. Lmao. 

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💕 My Letterboxd. 

💕 The last newsletter.

Thank you for reading. 

Bye x.